i cannot wait until i'm perfect, you'll be fucking sorry the next time you see me
oh. my. goodness. what a great day so far-despite the coldness. it's FREEZING here. this morning the weather said it was -49*C with the wind chill--what. the. fuck.
when i got back from volunteering i told K not to go outside. i don't want to go out again today. except i have to--sigh. if i want to stick to this gym thing then i got to bundle up and go outside and take that oh so short walk (which seems much longer) to the gym.
i feel thin today! have any of you ladies ever woke up feeling amazing? i seriously can't stop smiling. i can't wait to step on the scale at the gym. hopefully i won't get two depressed when i see the numbers--who knows maybe they might be good.
also, being thin is all i think about. every minute, every second of the day. god. i can't wait until i reach 100 pounds.
i was visiting M at the hospital yesterday. while i was there his new roommate had a heart attack and died. have you every seen anyone die? it's terrible. i hate hospitals.
--guess what!? i got two job offers, well they are just babysitting but still, i am so broke i'll do anything.
well, i am going to face the coldness and head to the gym, wish me luck!
-- julia :)