don't wish for it, work for it.
daaaay seven ,
i fucking hate B. i hate her for making me go down to the cafeteria with her. i am never going in that place ever again. -- that should solve my problems with bingeing. i feel horrible. i can't believe i let you girls down. i was doing so so great. i hadn't eating anything until now. i could have made myself a salad, but no-- i went straight for the grill, getting myself a bacon cheeseburger and mozza sticks, as well as two cookies and ice cream--fuccccck! -- i feel so bad, i feel like i am letting all you ladies down :(
punishment -- FASTING! -- for the next two days. maybe even saturday too, have any of you ladies ever fasted for three days? -- no eat whatever i want day sunday. all i can have is a salad.
-- this weekend is going to be really really hard-- i'm probably going to TY's house. i always eat so much when i'm there. -- not anymore i guess haha. i promise i'll try my hardest. i promise that if i have to eat i'll eat healthy or very very little. i will try very very very hard not to binge.
--back to B. i am un-best-friending her. i think i mentioned something to her about buying all my clothes a size to small, because she said 'if you keep buying them to small, soon you'll have no clothes to wear, and they would look good because you have a big chest'.
fuccck her. they will look good. i will be skinny--eventually. i will. i will. i'll show her. when i'm pretty and when she's a fat cow, i'll just laugh. laugh in her face--cause i'll have clothes that fit me when i'm thin. i won't have to worry about buying new ones.
blah. what a shitty day--
sorry i failed today.
bones are beautiful -- so starve on!